“I don’t think I can do that. I’ve never done something like that before.”
That’s what was going through my mind four years ago when our president asked me to take on more responsibility.
If I had seen the job posting for the position, I would not have even thought about applying. I only accepted the position because they agreed to put “interim” in the title. I felt like an “imposter” who was wearing a shirt that was too big for me.
In fact, the first time that I felt like a “real” executive director was months later, when I attended a conference with other executive directors. Most of them had more experience than me and oversaw larger organizations, but they were facing many of the same challenges and opportunities.
Why was it so hard for me to believe that I could do the job?
This experience was running through my mind as I attended a workshop with Clara Priester, “Building and Nurturing Self-Esteem.”
“What is self-esteem?” we asked ourselves. Our common answers were about valuing ourselves and feeling confident in ourselves. We are all inherently worthy, as beings capable of love and being loved, Clara declared.
“Be quiet.” “You can’t do that.” “You’re not good at that.” Often the words we hear when we are children become a self-fulfilling prophecy as we grow up, until we start telling those words to ourselves.
We spent time building up our self-esteem. We wrote down the traits we are proud of about ourselves – my traits are being thankful and seeing the good in people. And we celebrated compliments that make us feel awesome – for me, it was compliments about creativity and helping others and being a good mother.
Then we read aloud some of the negative phrases that hurt us and hold us back. Number two on the list: “I can’t do that.”
Here’s what to say instead: “I can try to do that.”
PS It’s a lot friendlier than the two phrases that changed my mind: “Say yes” and “Do hard things.”
Clara also talked a little about daily affirmations, positive words for something you would like to change or nurture in your life.
I have been doing this Morning Mantra for a few years now, and for me it’s a breath of calm:
I open myself to the world.
I share myself with the world.
I welcome good health.
Is there a negative phrase that holds you back from job opportunities, relationships, or hobbies? What affirmation can you start today to change your thinking?